I feel like I have been hit by lightning! Not literally, but in the EXCLAMATION POINT!!! I GET IT NOW! SUDDENLY EVERYTHING MAKES SENSE! Sort of lightning bolt sort of strike. It is, to say the least, enlightening. I GET it. I know my Dharma. I understand what I was MADE for. My life's purpose. I thought I knew before, I mean I have always known deep down, but the specificities always mucked things up. I would get too caught up in the HOW and lose track of the WHY. But now I know. This clarity came quite suddenly over a really long period of time. . . 31 years . . . ish. I got little whiffs of it and thought I could almost taste it a couple of times, but I am finally, just now, seeing and understanding the ingredients, and realize that I have them all and can really put these things together and make this thing happen. . . . deep breath in. . . . . . .and out. . . . . . . Its very exciting. . . and absolutely terrifying. Exciting to realize that I am perfect for this thing that I will do, and terrifying that in order to fulfill this, I have to move forward with out fear and self doubt. FEAR and SELF DOUBT. I am not ready to go public with the specifics. The HOW is my new work. I know I can do it though. I thought for a minute that I was not going to include the internet world in all of this. I was going to quit this blog and move forward, but then I realized that anyone who reads this, and anyone who wishes to, can be a part of this. YOU are a part of my Dharma. So is everyone else that I come in to contact with, accidentally or on purpose. What we do and feel effects everything around us. But things are going to be different here. I don't know in what ways exactly, but there has been a marked shift inside of me. You are welcome to stay with me as long as you like, and if you decide to go I have no issues with that. This space is progressing along with me on my journey. There might be pictures some days and some times there won't be. I will only be here if I have something to say or ask or share what I have discovered.
I expect that many of you will have no interest in this voyage. For those of you who do, welcome.